Distracting Myself with Memes While I Wait for an Autism Diagnosis.
Or, as I like to call it, “relaxing”.
I am currently in the stage of my autism diagnosis that is “I am 100% sure I am autistic but I am waiting for a screening in 2 weeks, and then will have to wait to get an evaluation after that and who knows how long that will take”.
What do I do with this dead space in my life while we wait? What should I even talk about in therapy? It seems futile to talk about anxiety or even family trauma if there’s a good chance that my entire worldview is shaped around the fact that I went almost 30 years with undiagnosed autism. Everything now needs to revolve around that. Don’t you dare cognitive behavioral therapy-ize me.
So, I wait. I search for articles, stories, videos, social media posts, etc online to save or send my therapist to help her, and me, make sense of my mind.
Here’s what I found this week, and the many thoughts that they facilitated:
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I recently attended a family wedding. I had many meltdowns about it in the weeks/months leading up to the event. My partner even suggested we tell the family that I am autistic, just to make them more aware of why I was struggling so much with everything. We decided against it, for the time being, as there was already so much…
